My life has been all topsy these few years. And now that te adults are not around to help, I guess this is growing up. Fending for myself, defending myself from inside thieves, hurtful family members who steal from me, those that poke fun, those that avoid us like the plague.

It hurts more now that I'm on my own, no parents - make that "mother" - to be my buffing shield, nobody to console me when I feel like killing everybody who crosses my path. I have a biological father who doesn't care, a mother who is taking a break from 24 years of marriage, a brother who has body of 19, but acts with the mentality equivalent to a primary school child.

Its not convenient to talk to the people at work. Its anybody's guess they wouldn't care anyway --- its not my life they are living. The most chivalrous act would be to lend a listening ear, but nothing more. Then proceed to laugh it off.

Money can buy material comforts. But can it buy unconditional love and care one desires so much for?

In the dog eat dog world, you're weak, you lose. That's why I psyche myself, almost everytime I am idle, sitting on the train, taking my strolls home, everywhere.

Be strong. Its going to be a long road ahead.

Holly shit. What's the world coming to. Since Naeboo stopped blogging, there'll be no more inspiration for lim-boy anymore. Excuse me while I retreat to the storeroom to cry.

I got this email. Actually, make that 2 emails of the same kind. I can't believe people are still so naive nowadays. Who I'm talking about is 24 to 26 year old adults who believes in this kind of bullshit. I took a rough calculation of the number of addressees, and I reckon about 6 stupid people had sent to about 800 people --- and that's only in my thread alone.

Grow up, people. Bill Gates won't share his wealth with anybody.

This was on the 9:00 o'clock news the other night and this works

THIS TOOK TWO PAGES OF THE TUESDAY USA TODAY - IT IS FOR REAL

PLEEEEEEASE READ!!!! it was on the news!

This thing is for real. Rest assured AOL and Intel will follow through with their promises for fear of facing a multimillion-dollar class action suit similar to the one filed by PepsiCo against General Electric not too long ago.

Dear Friends; Please do not take this for a junk letter. Bill Gates sharing his fortune. If you ignore this, You will repent later. Microsoft and AOL are now the largest Internet companies and in an effort to make sure that Internet Explorer remains the most widely used program, Microsoft and AOL are running an e-mail beta test.

When you forward this e-mail to friends, Microsoft can and will track it (If you are a Microsoft Windows user)? For a two weeks time period.

For every person that you forward this e-mail to, Microsoft will pay you $245.00 For every person that you sent it to that forwards it on, Microsoft will pay you $243.00 and ! for every third person that receives it, You will be paid $241.00. Within two weeks, Microsoft will contact you for your address and then send you a check.

Regards

Charles S Bailey General Manager Field Operations
1-800-842-2332 Ext. 1085 or 904-1085 or RNX
292-1085

I thought this was a scam myself, But two weeks after receiving this e-mail and forwarding it on. Microsoft contacted me for my address and within days, I receive a check for $24, 800.00. You need to respond before the beta testing is over. If anyone can afford this, Bill gates is the man.

It's all marketing expense to him. Please forward this to as many people as possible. You are bound to get at least $10, 000.00. We're not going to help them out with their e-mail beta test without getting a little something for our time. My brother's girlfriend got in on this a few months ago. When I went to visit him for the Baylor /UT game. She showed me her check. It was for the sum of $4, 324.44 and was stamped 'Paid in full'

Like I said before, I know the law, and this is for real.

Intel and AOL are now discussing a merger which would make them the largest Internet company and in an effort make sure that AOL remains the most widely used program, Intel and AOL are running an e-mail beta test.

When you forward this e-mail to friends, Intel can and will track it ( if you are a Microsoft Windows user) for a two week time period.

Try it; What have you got to lose!

I never spammed! 14 new year convo windows. Grand total of 3 replies. What the fuck are the rest doing? Busy watching 2008 porn?!

Its 2008 officially. Time to change the calender, new diaries, account books for the overzealous, blogs for those who cannot stand all the nonsense they typed in the old year, and of course new year resolutions.

2007 had been both a tough year and one of my easiest yet. Sounds contradictory cos I'm talking about different aspects of my life. Its been a roller coaster ride family wise --- everything that I came to take for granted broke apart, almost nothing was left behind to salvage. Of course I'm pretty upset about it, but not like anybody can help, especially when I insist my opinions on certain people. I thought; unless they change, I'll never change (my opinions). The case now is; even if they change, I'll never change nor forgive. Its too much accumulated pain over all again when somebody mentions the subject. Through this ordeal, I thought growing up would be a good thing. But this is not the case, because not growing up would have been a much better choice of ignorance. And ignorance is bliss. In 2006, I never thought it'll come to this stage, but now that it has, I'll wish 2008 will be a buffer year to numb the pain.

Although work is one of my easiest, not all's been smooth sailing. It was choppy. Power grabbers, attention whores, stupid asshats who are too nubile to understand what they are in for. 2007 had them all. But as you reach the senority status, the obstacles just melts away. You know as this point in life, people look up to you for advices, the same point in time when you mellow with a little bit more wisdom. My character hasn't always been the best one, I admit certain things cloud my vision and I need people to give pointers (sometimes I don't accept them), but I hope what I fought for is right for the majority interest. At the end of the day, I don't ask for forgiveness (you kidding, why the fuck should I do that) but I ask myself what I did was for the better. In 2008 my term of service will be almost over. I hope what I taught was as much as what I learnt. Let me have my peace.

Emotionally, its like a frigging desert. Period.

2007, thx&bye.

2008, hello bitch. Let's rock and roll.